Saturday, September 10, 2011


Abandonment... of so many things. Let's do this confession style.

Abandonment of.... well, it is September, and my last blog entry was July, so I think it is safe to say that I abandoned the entire month of August.

What exactly was I doing in August? Well.
August Week 1: feeling sorry for myself, but more specifically on the verge of a mental breakdown. I will say this without any censorship, fear of people reading this blog, or sensitivity. My old room mates were the worst room mates that anyone could ever hope to have. To be short, and not turn this into a cliché bitch-blog, they took SLOBS to a whole new level. Few examples: basement floods, other peoples feces are remnant on the bathroom floor down there, and this girl continues to use the washroom and shower in there.... irony? Not to mention trash everywhere, pot smoking every day and bombing the kitchen with nasty foods and rotting everything. Okay, I'll stop. Bottom line is: this lifestyle certainly does not mesh with mine. Secondly, the only guy room mate was the source of the most personal drama I have ever had in my life. I am talking gossip QUEEN. I have never met a WOMAN who gets away with the shit he pulls with regard to drama and gossip. I haven't had a conversation with this person that wasn't gossip-based... and he wonders why drama follows him? Wake up. Anyhow - this issue became so unbearable that my mental health was suffering, my mother and boyfriend had a serious sit-down and specifically told me to move out, bitching and complaining about this situation was literally all that consumed my life.
August Week 2:I began the hunt for a person to take over my lease as well as new living arrangments - which, in short, somehow panned out more beautifully that I could have ever expected... I had a little more than luck on my side :)
August Week 3: I set the arrangements in concrete and packed and moved. I found a fabulous new house, half the distance to school, renovated, bigger bedroom, with room mates who actually care about the fact that they're in university, care about their health, and care about living in a hazard-free space (Like I said - WAY MORE than just luck on my side. God obviously agreed with my decision). I absolutely could not have pulled off this move without the help of Michael and his brother Christian, who also painted my new place. Week 3 was extremely hectic - I packed, painted, moved in about 2 days. I was so cramped for time I was literally digging my plants out of the garden at 9pm. Then I set up my bed in my new place, packed for Algonquin, slept, and left the next morning at 7am for....
August week 4: Field Course to Algonquin park. I did 10 days here studying Aquatic Geochemistry. Was fantastic. Learned so much, met some really great people, and had amazing experience.
So I say August abandonment - but I really achieved an unbelievable amount in a very very short amount of time!

Abandonment of.... my old house and room-mates obviously. Do I regret this decision? Absolutely not. I believe it took a lot of courage for me to do what I did. I achieved the seemingly impossible, and made an absolutely necessary change in my life. My regret surrounding this decision was "playing nice" for as long as I did, especially to the drama-queen. Michael lost it on him and I tried to be nicey-nice peace keeper, but the fact of the matter is, everything out of Mike's mouth was MY THOUGHTS, and every brutal remark was something that I believed and should have stood by. Are they happy I'm gone? I'm nearly certain of it. But without a mother/maid they can rot in their own stench/weed-fumes/garbage/bad plumbing/hang overs/poor marks/promiscuity/raunchy mess. (I swear I'm nice in person)

Abandonment of..... diet and fitness. I know, terrible right? I start a blog about vegetarian health and fitness and last about a month - how many blogs does this happen to? Given, my August was crazy in every sense of the word, and it definitely tested my limits, to which I gave-in to, to say the least. However - being a vegetarian, I really don't have the availability to eat as poorly as 75% of the American population (sorry guys), but for my own standards I left myself feeling bloated, squishy, pale-faced, decrepit, deflated, weak, and disappointed. Okay, maybe those words are overboard, but I'm sure anyone who's failed at dieting and working out can appreciate what I mean.

Abandonment of..... Hopefully: negativity, hopelessness, helplessness, shame, defeat, anger, being taken advantage of, fake friends, bad friends, weed/alcoholism, laziness, desperation, complaining... I could go on.

Abandonment of.... summer. So by now I have pretty much proved what a neglectful human being I am - who abandons summer? Honestly, I would love nothing more than to pack in just one more weekend at my mum's place, soaking up the sun on the beach, working out every day, eating good food with good people, staying in her cute cottage-house. However, school has started, and it's about time that familiar September-smell returns to the air. I'm ready to pull out my fall sweaters, boots with tights, scarves that match the turning leaves, and inhale a breath of non-humid fresh air.

Last, but not least, abandonment of my blog, obviously. I'm not sure that anyone even reads this thing, but hey, I have enough cliché aspects in my life, I don't need that in my virtual life too. But having a blog at all pretty much achieves that, doesn't it? :)

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